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Friday, December 25, 2009

Cool eh?

Holaaaa peeps.

MERRY CHRISTMAS.

Finally I get to use Biggy. Thanks to my sister. :)

Anyways, I've thought about it. My friends had been asking me about facebook.

I used to delete my friendster, since I find it pointless. I thought facebook would be just as pointless. Nyaahhh.

So, I made a private account and I leave it empty without friends with an intention of: nak try-try jer..

Later, my friends added me and then... I have to accept their request.

SENANG CAKAP AH, now I've started using facebook, for real.

OkAY. UnbelievAble cause I've used to be those malas-nak-layan-this-kind-of-thing-sort.
hahaaa..

On the 17th dec....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAK WEEE

May allah bless you. Amin. :)

Soon.. it's gonna be my sis and mom's birthday

Both fall on the same day- 27th dec.

I'll always pray for their well-being and health.

May allah bless us as a whole family. amin. :)

Alriiight now I'm done.

I'll start my friends search in facebook soon.

hahahahha.

Goodbye. :)

P.s: D&G's lampeatrice latest is so cool. I fell in love with the smell. :)

With love,syafiqah @ 1:50 PM

Monday, December 07, 2009

Going M.I.A soon

Hellooooooooooo! :)

Wow I've really missed viewing people's blog updates, talk to my babes... And of course.... watching cradleslippingme's videos... hahaha.. oops. :P

Well basically, I've got myself a place in a kindergarten as a part time trainee teacher...that's why I've been away for a week..haha.. I'm trying out for something new.. Hope I could make it through blissfully. God's will.

Loads of things happened to me within a week, really.

My last post sound kinda emo, but whatever, I don't want to sound pathetic anymore hahahh. Life has to go on as it is and I'll go wherever the cloud brings me.. :)

I'm happy being this way, being different and imperfect. O yeaahhhh~ =)

Currently it's 1am on the dot and I'm still wide awake..

exactly 9 more hours to the next tiringgg day. Blergh.

I just finished watching 'princess protection programme'.

Okay lah, quite nice..

Now I know why my little cousin nabilah have a huge ambition of being a princess.

The movies in disney channel really influenced children to be you know- the princess wannabe sort.. haha..

*chk chk chk*

Now I really have to sleep. But I can't.

Tomorrow still can watch some more movies in my sister's lappy which she named it biggy.

Such a nice name seh!! walampuik. hahahaaaa. :P

Oh ya! Tomorrow can't wait to watch my-version-'rush hour'.

People like really crazy ah rushing to mrt and some like taking bus.

I love to watch people in a rush to work. Hahah.

But I just can't stand it when some people close their nose when they saw a group of banglas boarding the bus in the morning..

Like as if those who close their nose smell sooo nice. -.-

please ah eh, insulting seh.

Banglas are human too, they don't deserve humiliation and discrimination okay...

Okaylahhh.. sorry if I offended those anti-banglas out there but it's just my opinion..

Maybe you had a traumatic incident with them? Then I can have no say.

Oh my god, why am I talking about banggalas now? -.-

Haiyo. Whatever lah fans of banglas ker, enemies of banglas ker...

Enjoy your sleep, rest well since it's gonna be monday blueees tomorrow!

hahaha..

byeeeee!

With love,syafiqah @ 12:18 AM

Monday, November 30, 2009

Note to self: just breathe.

Heys.

Went out with sis hawa and fiq yesterday.

Had a great time.

Really, I owe a lot of thanks to both of them. Haha tak habes2..

And thanks to fiq for the kfc treat! yumms. :P

And to kak we, hope you'll really enjoooooy your 19th birthday which is coming soon.

Stay sweet and happy k. :)
Oh, btw I really enjoyed the part we are in supreme court for the design blahblah festival.

I reaaaaaallllllly have been wanting to go in there, and didnt get a chance to since it's always closed.

Tiba tiba semalam bukak! wah I'm so happy that I finally get to enter that prestigious place.

HEEehhhh.

Don't mind me, I'm always excited for some merepek(nonsensical) reason. haha. :)

Apparently, something rare happened to me yesterday.

Ain't gonna describe further.

It's a disappointment, nothing ironical or exciting. heh.

I don't even know why the heck I'm feeling this way.

Down down down down down.

Maybe I must learn to let go.

And believe that whatever I heard is not an apparition or dream.

It's reality and I know, I have to face it.

Maybe that girl who had put in loads and loads of efforts, shall deserve it, yeaah. :)

I'm chill with it.. haha..

I've never expect anything so far, it's tough to conclude why exactly I'm feeling this way.

Legs trembling, nerves gone crazily haywired, brain disfunctioned temporarily, tears waiting for the time to run out.

I felt that way throughout the day,I felt super disappointed and sad when I heard about it but I just keep it to myself. It's better that way. I hate to show how bad I felt. I hate to cry in front of people. It's very rare. So long I could control, I will.

Control control control.

Speech utterly distorted, don't know what am I saying most of the time. hah.

In my heart, I uttered prayers again and again.

I told myself to chill, chill and chill.

But one weird thing about me, I don't know how many things I've bottled up so far.

I've never ever confessed how I felt to anybody unless that person triggered. NEVER.

Cause that's not me. I take my feelings lightly and always think negatively of myself and the outcomes before I put my thoughts or feelings into words.

I'm not as brave as certain society. I'm not.

I controlled my tears until yesterday night after isyak, when it all burst out like water pipe when I was letting it all out to Allah s.w.t.

I know He knows me the best, I believe He listened.

For now,let me put it this way, I'm happy to see him happy with what he has, or who he likes.

I don't mind keeping my feelings to myself, since that is what I've been doing so far. I am much comfortable with this.

Love is all about heart, not force.

Nah nah nah, don't want to make it sound so cheesy. :)

Hahaha..

*hug myself*

cheer up! cheer up syafiqah!!!!! :D

With love,syafiqah @ 10:17 AM