Sis Hawa and me. :)

This morning I was totally in a rush. Autocad lagged, can't do my work.. So I took my time to reconfigure everything up and somehow by luck, it survived. alhamdulillah. (:

Afterward, I headed down to amk and meet zhonghua and farah for our typo project and soon later, met kakwe! :) meeting kakwe was the most interesting part of the day that I looked forward for. hehe.
Actually, we are cousins, I know we looked like total opposite.
Reason why maybe cause she's indian mixed and I'm thailand mixed up. So we are both jumbled up. hahaha.


Well that was this morning that I felt glad I woke up normally.

Unlike yesterday morning, I woke up at the wrong side of the bed..
I woke up realizing that whatever happened the day before was actually depressing.
school work load, Final Sem assignments, people....people... people... people.. things.
everything was just a mess in my head that day.
I know it's not my PMS this time round ok. hahaha
:/
In addition, it was a MONDAY.
So everything wasn't that right actually.

Now, read this:

I can't deny the fact that sometimes I can be a total egoist.
And sometimes, what I felt was not what I let out.
I may tell you how much I hate you when deep inside, you might never know what it is.
I may say that I'd never care at all, but read my actions and touch my heart. Then you'll know.
Sometimes, I think and take things too deeply that it will hit my past again and I stumbled.
I know I have to let go of the past.
It's killing me.

now tell me what water tastes like?
Exactly.You just can't explain them.
The same reason for why
love is just so confusing.
It's all sets and kinds of feelings being compressed together.
It's like something you can't describe.
Sometimes you can really love and be so happy about it. But when suddenly you lost your mood and energy, you don't feel like you love.

Well, I used to think that love's like fairytales. In reality, fairytales dont last long. :/

And sometimes, certain things that you heard could be so hurtful and painful to take in.
And the next second, that thought will linger on until at a certain point you feel like giving up.

BUT...
things happen for a reason.
and no matter how bad I am in handling feelings and my own emotions, I'll try to be optimistic about it.
When I think good, I'll feel good.

I choose to let nature take its place and I'll go where the wind blow.
I'll let my heart choose which way to go.


Hari-hari makan bayam,
ok bye selamat malam! hehehee ;P

Nite*