Tuesday, November 06, 2007
Last blogged @ 19:38

the most unluckiest day I should say.
20/10/07.

It's for the last time I would see my granddad...
Until now,I missed him alot.
His advices..
His smile...
The food he used to cook..
I missed it all..

He used to tell me..
"hard effort pays.."
he told me his hard time earning money for his family..

and after all his great effort..
he managed to raised her children properly.

He said he still remembered those times he's too poor..
that he have to seperate all his children..
He gave his sisters to take care of his children for a while.

He told me..
experience teaches you on alot of things..
it made you wiser..in handling problems.

When I have no one to talk to..
I loved talking to him..
I remembered when my mom scolded me..
He's the one who comforts me..

and when the day he's in the hospital..
He told my mum which was the eldest in the family.
He apologised if he seperated her from the rest.

and when I helped feed him some food and drinks.
he told me.. thank you and sorry if he did punished me before.
I cried coz I cant bear seeing it..
seeing his boney body..
seeing him suffering from his stomach cancer..
Seeing him saying that his death will come soon..
seeing his effort he used to give us..
seeing the strong body changed to a very weak body..

I regretted..for not being there when he had his last breath.

It was 1 am..
since that is what written..
he passed away.

i hope his soul rest peacefully..
and if you can read this from up there tok,
ifi mintak maaf..