Sunday, January 20, 2008
Last blogged @ 16:34

Ive seen the colours of life.
But I still havent see the rainbows of my life.

Each day..I wish the day didnt reached tomorrow.
I wish that the time passed by slowly.
as if Im scared if anything will happen even worst than today.

Have you ever felt
that youre lying to yourself?
You always tried to be happy.
But deep down inside..youre actually crying.
You showed that fake smile..
To each and everyone that passed by you.
Showing people that youre okay.
But actually youre not.

And it's like all the days passed by are just dull.
You have no excitement.
No joy..to move on to the next day.

You envied people around you.
Having good family.
Having good friends.
Having beauty.
Having talent.
Having wealth.
Having everything that they want in this earth.
Having happiness all day long.
And after that.
You can just observe their happiness.
Be happy for their happiness.
Sometimes you wish your life's like the people you see around you..

Have you ever felt this way?

Youre just tired.
You know god's testing you.
But you still cant take it.
You cant face another day..
coz you know each day lies an imperfection.

There's never a day you can see a rainbow.
There's never a colour more brighter than grey.
You feel like youre a fool.
Youre always guessing your future.
Making fat hopes.

Thinking that everything will be fine.
But at last it is still the same.

It didnt change.
AT ALL.

You wish that that person in your family changed.
You see your friend's happy because her family is soo happy.
You see that they are having a happy family..

You hope everything will change as the time goes.
You believe that time will heal everything.

And yes I do believe.
That God will change my life one day.
I want to stop worrying.
And from now on..I will just rely

on destiny.