Tuesday, March 04, 2008
Last blogged @ 17:27

My eyes were swollen the very first morning I stepped in school.
To think of the incident that happened yesterday,
I felt really sad.
Until now,Im still crying.
For seven hours yesterday,i cried non stop.
And I have my witness,nadiah.

I never cried so badly.
I never ever thought that I have such hypocrite friends,
I never ever betrayed a friend.
I dont understand why Im the one who get betrayed.

And yet, when people say they are "minahs",
I tried to defend,
I said they are not.

On their birthdays,
I tried to give my best.
I tried to love each of them.
Although Im new there.

Remember when they all lose trust on each other?
I gave advices to one of them,
telling her to be friends again.

Especially to the one who wrote everything about me in her blog,
Do you know who is the" ______ "who's trying to defend you from the "....", in your tagbox?
I didnt tell you,right?
But you know something,it's me.
Im the one who tried to defend you in your tagbox.

I sacrificed alot.
Only God knows how hard I save up for her birthday.
Mom gave me $2 a day.
And I didnt ate for the whole week.
Even if I did,I used my past savings.
All I did,is
Just for you.
Im not trying to bangkit or whatsoever.
And Im not lying.

And You,my old-bestfriend,you know about my family probs right?
ANd now,you should know how more terrible Im feeling.

And you,
now,youre writing all my bad points in your blog.
I dont care if it's me or not.
What I know is that you treat all of us nicely,
and then you wrote a letter,trying to say it's not me,
But someone else..
Obviously it's me.
I can sense.
So,are you all trying to be a hypocrite right here?

Even if it's not me,
I still hate that hypocriteness in all of you.
Imagine if that particular person reads this?
Don't you think she'll feel disappointed too?
Have a sense of sensitivity,please.

I thought you all were my bestfriends.
But definitely,now I dont even regard you all as one.
Even you,my old-bestfriend.
I thought these people were nice,
My guess is wrong.

Now,I hope you'll feel happy.
Without me,the irritating bugger that you mention in your blog.
And happily ever after yeah,SIX friends.

You all dont know how disappointed Im feeling now.
Only God knows.

I hope after this,
Nobody else in that group will get betrayed and be disappointed.
Ill try to avoid all of you.
The SIX of you.

Anyway,thanks for all the memories.
Especially at jalan kayu.
That's the most memorable one.

But if I knew earlier,
I wont be there.
So that all of your memories will be more beautiful.

Let us be strangers now,
I ll try to move on and search for TRUE friends.

I dont really wish to say more.
I just felt really disappointed in all of you.
I dont expect this from all of you.