Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Last blogged @ 20:08

hey heyy!(:

Yesterday,we study group once more.
However,many of us were very emoitic yeaaah.
boring jugaklahh,coz the only fresh people were me,azimah,zuzu and saiful.

first,hakeem starts to be emo.
Then,he told me his probs.
Im really lost okay.
Coz Ive not been with them for two days alr.
zuzu say aifaa and him were alr sad and moody the two days before..

Then,when hakeem wrote one note,aifaa started to go toilet and cry.
Im rly rly lost.
Hakeem told me he lost his soul.
Athira,noris too are dealing with great probs.
and got something more personal than this.

Im really worried.
Like what's happening with all of them.

Than hakeem told me his past.
And suddenly I flashbacked my own past reminisce..
I mean,it's unexpected that each of us in "orgasms and alienseeyal" had our bad past before.
It's now when I got closer to them,then I found out that all of us are bad before.

Even me.
I admit that I lied to eyka before.
I admit Im such a bad friend.
I admit Im really bad.
I did something even worser than just lying.
I know I deserved to be hated.
It's okay..
It's part of my retribution.
Im a liar,but thats in the past.
Im not at all you think I am.
DOnt get cheated by this innocent face.

SOmetimes,people have to do bad things so that they will be a better person in life.
If you cant accept people for who they are,and hate people coz they did sth wrong to you,then look at yourself first.
Look whether are you an angel yourself?
If not,forgive and fortake.

SOmetimes,people cant accept apologies.
They think they are just perfect.
Im used to this.
Im getting bored with friends who are "angels" in disguise.

But I know I must accept all these retribution.
Somehow,these,makes me closer to God.
Sometimes,when I look at myself in the past,I cry.
I want to start a new life,afresh.
With friends who are equally same as me.
Who each have our bad pasts and sorrows.
And with those who are matured and trying hard to change for life.

Thanks to these people who had change my life: cicak,aifaa,hakeem,saiful,azimah,zuzu,noris,nanad,lipas and athira.
"The orgasms".