Sunday, August 24, 2008
Last blogged @ 16:25

Well if I could run away from my problems,I would want to.I tried running away from it,but the more I run away from it,it came nearer.I'm still confused over everything that's going around my life.I'm confused of who am I. I'm confused of who are my true friends,and who're my family.I'm confused of who my cousins were,I'm confused of who're the one who truly love me for me. I'm still finding that true love,that something that has the power to open my heart,but I know that once I started to love that person,I tend to rely. And this is when everything will turn again,like a cycle of nightmare.I've kept all this problems to myself,I try not to be any emo kid.I appeal like as though I had no problems.A happy- go- lucky girl.

But sometimes,I feel like running away from home,from school,coz that's the only places where problems evolve.But where could you run to? Until when must you hide? And then I thought of the future. If I could do such a thing,what will my future be? I'm still gasping for air,still trying to get out from that crowd of complicated problems.

I nearly ran away from my problems,taking a shorter way to release myself from having to think about them. Then, when I tried,I don't know where to go,or where to hide and I felt really lost.Within a day,not any problems were solved,instead,another problem evolved.

But when I look at how my friends reacted when they have problems,I felt really disappointed. When I see them running away from home,school,I see them as cowards,who doesnt dare to face the burden they have to take.Then,I know that these people are the people who're trying to find perfection in life.

I'm glad that god had whispered the words of wisdom in me.
I realised that problems are something neutral,something that everyone has to face in life.
Till here.
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