Monday, October 05, 2009
Last blogged @ 23:10

Dear diary,

I just don't feel right tonight.
I need to prioritise my time because for now, I studied for less than 3 hours and haven't been actively involved in family-oriented activities.
I just realised O levels is 3 weeks from now. And I don't know why it seemed so tough for me. I'm still sane though part of me is turning insane.

Anyway, last saturday was the most best raya I had with my hunks and babes. Really. But after everything ended, that night I sat on my bed and I kinda imagine my life without them around me. Sooner or later, all of us will be on our seperate ways. But I really hope we won't be seperated. Like what we planned, to meet once every two months.. I really hope that happened. I just could feel how much I really love them as my friends now and how essential they were to me. Hah, but let's not elaborate that much. Pictures were on my phone but I'm feeling so crapped up to even upload it on my computer. I know, you've never seen such a lazy monger like me. hahaaa. :P

Another month more and I'm finally out of that school. It's what I've always wished for, but as it comes nearer, I just don't feel like I want it anymore. It's not that I wanted to trash my future away, but I just realised how much I would miss my friends later.

And then part of me still brought me back to my reminisce. I just missed those moments when I'm with dee. It was the last ramadan and syawal when he actually completed my life. But this syawal, my friends and family were the completion. But I realised we're just not fated to be. Since every hello ends with a goodbye. (:

well that's it.. goodnight.